All I Want

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All I Want : Kodaline 

So you brought out the best of me,
A part of me I’ve never seen.
You took my soul and wiped it clean.
Our love was made for movie screens.

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It’s finally spring. It’s spring and tonight is one of those nights when you can feel it, the newness of grass and leaves and the water compressed in the air. The wind whips as a reminder of the change and branches breathe heavy in the sky.

It’s easy for me to feel alive in the midst of all this growth. I love the smell of the rain and I love the way it feels on my face in the dark against the night sky. I love the grass beneath my feet and the way the earth moves in, just a little, to accommodate my steps above. I love finding a song and listening to it over and over and over because it makes me marvel at this singular, full, vibrating life, marvel at this selfhood that I have and forget and remember again, marvel at my legs, moving in circles on the pavement as I twirl around and around like a crazy person or maybe a person not so crazy after all. I love the big bursting feeling of it all, of being alive and alert; I am a girl in motion, I am propelled by breath and muscles and beats and the stuff of the heart.

I am a tiny part of this gigantic, pulsating Earth, in motion. I am of the universe and a universe in myself. I am love and light, darkness, I am whirling and still and tired, I’m awake and alert and I’m human.

Pictures from Alaska, summer 2011. 


March Music Mix

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                                                 the (d)evolution of a photo

It’s Friday, folks.

This week has been long and different than expected. It’s involved a lot of love and a lot of laughs and also some tears and tired eyes. It hasn’t been perfect but then again, what ever really is? I’m thankful for the moments we have, however perfect or imperfect they may be. I’ve been thinking a lot about this Natalie Jean interview-especially about being in a place that’s so frustrating and you’re feeling anxious and freaked out in the moment and all these things are happening all at once and then you realize, these are the good days.  In her words:

Someday I’ll look back on this and be like ‘man, that was wild. That was hard and how fun was that?’” All it takes is just a tiny shift in perspective to remind yourself, “this right here is kind of a miracle!” I can love this while I’m in it instead of looking back and being like “oh, that really wasn’t so bad.”

Really focusing on that right now, while waiting in line for Mike’s cough medicine prescription at CVS or sitting tired on the T late at night or walking outside in spring shoes and being way, way too cold. Hopefully tomorrow morning at 4:15 in the cab on the way to the airport. We’ll see. Wish me luck 🙂 (<<can we talk about this wonky smiley face for a sec? hehe)

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So on to the main attraction.

Guess what?!

I have a music mix and it is for you. Actually, its for my bff Julie, with whom I’ve been exchanging mixes every month since the September of our senior year of high school. But for our purposes, it is for you. I figured, why not share the wealth? Making these playlists has gone back and forth between being my favorite, most inspiring thing to being my eh, ok I gotta get this out for Julie thing, to being my OH MY GOD SO MUCH GOOD MUSIC thing. Definite fluctuations. But right now I’m feeling really happy finding new music and March in particular is real good. I think I’m back on track. Yay! Insert little happy dance (because we’re talking about music… eh… get it? k thanks cool).

Here is a link to some A+ March tunes, if you’re in a listening mood. A few thoughts on the list:

1) March mixes are never complete without a song off of The Velvet Underground and Nico. This year it was Here Comes the Sun. In my opinion, Sunday Morning and Femme Fatale would work just as well. It depends on the year, I guess.

2) I absolutely fell in love with Summer Underground over the course of February. I’m super into all of their albums/songs. Really cool music and story and lots of love.

3) You can’t always get what you want. This American Life, Episode 581, Act 4. Listen to it. You’ll thank me.

4) I sang I Found a Reason at a high school coffeehouse 5 years ago this week. #memories. What comes is better than what came before, indeed.

This has been olive, over and out.